Disconnected

Sunday, July 7, 2013
This summer I have been disconnected. I am in an element that I am not use to. It started when I had to live in Martin for a week. It was a humbling experience to live in a dorm and not "have the keys". My internship does not play to my strengths and I find that frustrating. Last summer I was totally in my sweet spot and thriving. This summer, I am enjoying what I am learning but I am not fully able to best use my skills and talents. However, that is growing me a lot.

On vacation (oh yea I went on a Mediterranean cruise) I was disconnected from the internt and my cell phone. It was funny to have to plan with my family when we were going to meet places because we could not just text each other. It was also very freeing.

Now back on campus the house I live in still does not have internet. The other day on facebook I saw some one post about how they found out they wont have internet or cable in their house for a week and it was going to be terrible. I don't even think about cable. In college it has become so not a thing in my life. However, the internt very much is a thing in my life. I use it a lot. This summer I do not. I am lucky that I can just pack up my computer and bike over to the student center. Even if it is closed I can get on from outside the building. However, it is another little step to think about. When I think about something I want to look up- I cant just go grab my computer and pull up google. I have to save the thought till I can go get internet. Yes, I can use my phone and I do sometimes. I use to to check facebook and twitter etc. But I am not a big blog reader on my cell phone and I am not really into researching things on my phone. So those things get pushed to the "remember for when I get on the internet" burner.

I have to be intentional with my internet usage. It reminds me of going to Kenya when we would pay for each minute of internet.

So I read a lot. Which is good. Let me know if you need any book recommendations.



Anyways. I have felt disconnected in a lot of ways. I have hit some pretty low lows and experienced some growing pains. But I have also seen the Lord in a lot of ways too.

I said goodbye to my boss, mentor, and one of my best friends (all the same person). But so many relationships have grown in ways that they would not have if I was not here.

The quantity and quality of rest that I dreamed of has not happend yet but in these next few weeks I want to fight for them.